You may see me cry but you'll never see me fall

Whatever it takes,

Tue, 02/09/2010 - 8:14AM by Carilyn 0 Comments - 6 Views

I'm sick since yesterday, fortunately fever subsided this afternoon after a visit to the docs and sore throat is not that sore anymore. Amazingly, Remus and I got sick at the same time. I don't know if it's a good thing or, not? Oh that silly + sweet boy paid me a visit just to pass me fish noodles in the middle of the night, close to 11am. The worst thing is that he's as sick as me, awwww. I don't wanna get sick as CNY is on the way. I foresee many things to attend to and I've already planned for most of the days during CNY. Gonna be just fun ^^v Anyway I should be asleep now b'coz I got to get up at 6.30am tmr to prepare to meet meiling and bake our pineapple tarts at her friend's place! HEHEHE finally doing something fruitful. ~~ And yes you didnt see wrongly, 6.30am!! It's been a long time since I woke up this early, can't imagine that I actually have to force myself to get out of bed tmr or else I'm sure to be nagged by Laireta Seet. Good night darlings! Dota's boyf stealer kthxbai ;)

HOLIDAYS.

Sun, 02/07/2010 - 1:19AM by Carilyn 0 Comments - 7 Views

As you can see from the pictures above and the rest of my posts, its all taken during the holidays ever since O's ended. Right now I want to say that I had enough of holidays, for once. I've done whatever I planned and could. Almost everyday I would be spending it outside. -Watching movies, kbox, clubbing, shopping, chilling, hunting for nice food. So more or less I'd already caught all the new movies and I think 'the spy next door' and 'tooth fairy' are the two movies most worth watching. Awww, days are getting more and more boring. How I wish school could start now. Fortunately, CNY is coming up and I'm anticipating eagerly for it. At least I've got something meaningful to do, I can't wait to see all my lil' cutie cuzs and catch up with Wenmei!~ keke.

Anyway there's an clubbing event coming up next Friday, 12th Feb. It's located at Singapore Flyer and the event is called All Red Affairs. 12am-6am (special timing), tics going at 18 bucks per tic. Please reserve your tics frm me asap, contact me at 91803914. Come in couples gets priority entry. Any enquires you may contact me thru my cell phone too. See you guys yo

Well speaking about school, I'm giving up a place in SP. They say it ain't worthy of me to do so. But I've got sufficient reasons to do so and the good thing is that I've got a better option. Moreover, SP isn't the desired poly I want to enter. I wanted to enter Ngee Ann Business/Leisure. But I didn't make it by a slight slash. Well, this would be the last regret I gonna have in life - not hitting the target score I set for O's. I wasted last year's June holidays and slacken down much towards the end. Hence, I want to do well in the next challenge I'm gonna take up, no matter how tedious, stressed up I'll be.

Oh and I have a understanding and supportive dad. Just a diploma in SIM for a year is going to cost him more than 10k. Followed by bachelor and overseas studies in UK. Just so you know, its going to cost at least 5 times or more. So I am going to work hard because I know these are all hard-earned money and it's all because he wants to see me succeed in life. Am not gonna disappoint him, kudos to me people? ^^v

S & R.

Fri, 02/05/2010 - 11:45AM by Carilyn 0 Comments - 8 Views




Two important people of my life. Since you guys walked into my life, please don't ever walk away for I wouldn't be able to take the pain of losing someone so dear ever again. We may quarrel but please hold on no matter what. As for Ms. Pu Dua, even though you like to piss me off with your silly and stupid craps, but you know I really treasure you from the bottom of my heart. I hope by your next birthday, you will become more mature and senstitive to the ongoings around you. Stop sulking about things that's already over or mind so much over trivial issues. I don't care what others say about you, 'cos I know I have got a choice, and the choice is I want to be your friend for now and always.



Remus Tan XY; I can't promise you forever but I can promise you everlasting. Reason beings: I can't afford to break your heart 'cos you are someone priceless. Neither do I want to make it seemed like I can predict the future. It seems like years that we have known each other but in fact its only a mere 2-3 months. You gave me the best you could and I think I am one of the luckiest woman on earth. True enough, ily.


Happy 19th, Axel Chia

Wed, 02/03/2010 - 11:33PM by Carilyn 0 Comments - 6 Views
The lil' surprise we had for Axel. You're 19 now, finally an adult. Please do up your marriage age plan and all ok! You don't have much time to play and flirt around already HAHAHA. We known each other for a near 5 years and it's still counting on. You once said that I was your priority in terms of siblings, and I hope this fact stays on. I love you, one of the best! Anything you can count on me, whoever you dislike, you know I'll follow suit. We're together, I'll never leave you alone. Once again, happy 19th! :>

Days like this.

Wed, 02/03/2010 - 12:52AM by Carilyn 0 Comments - 6 Views

You might be one person to the world, but to me, you are the world. Time really files yo. Goodbye Jan, Hello Feb. I hope every month gets better than the previous one. Hi 2010, no matter what, I'm considered 18 this year. KEKE. Went to the temple with my mom early this morning. Mom says this year is a bad year for money's year as tiger's year clashed with monkeys. They predicted that I would have some kind of accident befalling on me, so I struggled to get out of bed at 9.30am this morning despite sleeping only @ 8am! Satisfaction left with me aftermath. :>

Anyway caught the show "My Ex" with Remus yesterday, randomly. I was supposed to watch with the rest on Thurs but that silly boy purchased the tics even without letting me know, nice one. The movie was average thou it scares me a few times. Alright gonna go now, needa celebrate Axel's advanced birthday. I'm owned KTHXBAI.

Very rush

Fri, 01/29/2010 - 1:58AM by Carilyn 0 Comments - 9 Views
In two weeks time, I went kbox twice and caught two movies. Did some shopping and meet ups with some long time no see lovebales too. Please catch The Spy Next Door 'cos its really nice. JACKIE CHAN FTW~ Anyway haven't been staying at home for a while already...I should do it real soon. Been spending quality time with b almost everyday. With love. KTHXBAI :>

Thank God I found you

Mon, 01/18/2010 - 11:26AM by Carilyn 0 Comments - 9 Views

I will be leaving this space for some time as I won't come online as frequent already. I somewhat think it's quite meaningless to stare at the screen facebooking and msning for hours. Once in a blue moon,I'll do that. Oh and I am learning how to cook at home since only me and my maid is home now. Parents left for overseas. Omg the whole house's mine hehehehe. Anyways I re-dyed my hair yesterday. Not too bad thou,could have been better.

Anyway zouk last sat! Life couldn't be better. Fastastic club companions, awesome electro. Dion and I took flaming lambo, Jerome took tequila shots. The night's really awesome, it's such a pity there were no cameras to snap any pictures that day. But I guess even there is, we wouldn't have any time to do so. Zouk > Phuture, Phuture < Zouk for 10 over times. Can't wait to club with 'em this weekend again! Met Vegas yesterday as well, I miss him thorougly much. It's been long since I've seen him.

Know what? I'm really thankful because I've awesome guy friends whom I could really count on, and that they really take me as one of their blood-related sister. Like Jerome, he's always there for me. Even having a boyf now won't make a difference 'cos I'll be loving you guys long time. And I'm pretty sure even if I were to have a boyf now, he would understand. KTHXBAI :>.

Je' taime

Thu, 01/14/2010 - 11:38AM by Carilyn 0 Comments - 6 Views

Maybe,life's like a burden to her right now. Maybe,she's having the hardest period of her time now. Maybe she is lost,maybe she no longer knows her directions. But fret not, I am here. Like i promised. I will be there at the darkest moment of your life,just like you were there. I am here for a reason-Her. I want her to be happy because she is my only BBG. So precious to me. No riches nor diamonds can be compared to this bbg that I have. And cant afford to lose her nor forsake this friendship I have with her. A pity,I am bad at expressing and bad at words. But I hope she understands. I don't know why is she so upset right now. But I know I wanna be her listening ears,her shoulders to cry on. I wanna be the one who can wipes her tears and takes her fears away. I love her,carilyn h.s.l.

As you can see from above, bbg's being such a sweet thing. She never fails to be there for me. I've been facing some kind of problems lately and have yet to make known the root of the problem to anyone thus far. I guess I am being selfish but in fact,I'm trying hard not to be a burden to anyone,be independent and solve my own problems. What I can say is maybe...nostalgia. Its the feelings of slight pleasure and sadness as you think of the past. To be frank,I don't know what's going on in me. Inside of me,I'm beginning to feel weak. This is not me. Is it because I'm not studying now and that I can't have an excuse to occupy my mind now? My days are carefree now that results are released,and that I've made my choice. I've been chatting with last year O's students on msn as well. We all agreed on the the mindset we have now is "Aimless". Even though Ive waiting for days like this to go all out and have the high time out of myself,but I can't help feeling empty and would often paused and wondered "Is this how I am going to live on for some time?". I really need to do something about it. I should go take up some meaningful lessons like learning another language/photography,go for swim,and learn how to cook. Or so many other things. P.S: Oh and I am going to re-dye my hair to blonde or slighly darker. Hopefully to get it done by this weekend! Needs to get a new vans, tee shirts with nice printings too

Gonna go set some goals already,will be back to share with you guys!^^ Don't wanna waste my time like how I did before. Woohoo,bai. /Felt better now,thanks bud:).

Sweetheart,

Wed, 01/13/2010 - 10:00AM by Carilyn 0 Comments - 14 Views


Hi earthlings, it's only the 14th day of Jan and it seemed to that I'm so far away from my new year resolutions. SOMEONE.PLEASE.HELP. Whenever I'm with JJ the basterio, crude words never fail to flow out of my mouth. Free flow. People who don't know me usually have the impression that I'm not that sort of person yknow. Then whenever I do that, they would change their impression of me. I dont want this to happen. Next. My results? Could have done way better, if I skipped all of 2009's clubbing, outings and slacking. But what is over is over, not gonna brood over it. What matters is the future,and I still have the chance. And I'm gonna treasure this chance. So what now? I'm sick argh. My cough's killing me, lung's suffering. I can barely speak normally now. Flu's like water tap (LOLZ), can take it no more. Am gg to the docs tmr. Next. Mom wants me to go AUS and study but I don't think I am able to adapt to the environment there alone,so am waiting for sonia. Meanwhile,complete my diploma. Anyhowz,get well soon the poor lil' me.


P.S: This is a slipshod post,pardon my english and whatever u call it, sentence structure. Im really tired. KTHXBAI.


Take me away today

Sun, 01/10/2010 - 9:45AM by Carilyn 0 Comments - 7 Views

I'm upset that things ended up this way I'm sorry for making everything a past tense. Thanks for all the memories, and everything. It will all be etched at the back of my mind. Nothing beats me than having to hurt someone. Even though I've long forgotten the feeling of being unloved,but I know that it's gonna be hard on you. Please be strong,I hope you can make it through in no time. Oh angels,will you please help me to see that he is moving on faster as each day passes by. I'm no one, am a ordinary girl and I don't believe how deep you could actually fall for me. Let's stop lest the pain gets deeper. They say I'm the only antidote for you,the key to heal your broken heart. But no,I told them they are wrong, it is time who will heal all wounds and get you back up on your feet.

I've no choice but to be frank. All in all I know that you'll survive all this. And I also know that in time to come,I'll miss you.

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